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-Still waiting to hear from Karnstedt about his energen. Still waiting to
-talk about rain therapy, which I will be doing this evening.
+Still waiting to hear from Karnstedt about his energen. Still waiting to talk about rain therapy, which I will be doing this evening.
 
-Meanwhile, speaking of mental alterations, my correspondents the
-Canadian Nazi publishers recently received some notoriety in the \sc{ufo}
-press.
+Meanwhile, speaking of mental alterations, my correspondents the Canadian Nazi publishers recently received some notoriety in the \sc{ufo} press.
 
-It seems that someone identified as connected with this organization
-has been interrupting other \sc{ufo} gatherings with something-or-other
-delivered as a loud harangue.
+It seems that someone identified as connected with this organization has been interrupting other \sc{ufo} gatherings with something-or-other delivered as a loud harangue.
 
-I quote from a letter of protest: '"The book \sc{ufo}s: Nazi Secret Weapon
-has no basis in fact, and seeks to perpetuate the myth that Adolf Hitler is
-still alive and is unleashing \sc{ufo}s to force the world to buckle under to
-the Nazi criminals . . . They, and their numbers are few, have been
-ordered off the premises of a series of public auditoriums where they
-have been harrassing \sc{ufo} investigators who give lectures there."
+I quote from a letter of protest: \dq{The book \bt{\sc{ufo}s: Nazi Secret Weapon} has no basis in fact, and seeks to perpetuate the myth that Adolf Hitler is still alive and is unleashing \sc{ufo}s to force the world to buckle under to the Nazi criminals\ld\ They, and their numbers are few, have been ordered off the premises of a series of public auditoriums where they have been harrassing \sc{ufo} investigators who give lectures there.}
 
 Perhaps this is uncontrolled pranic channeling.
 
-So while I am still waiting for word on the more benign aspects of
-interdimensional energy channeling, I am going to drop these Canadian
-Nazis another line and ask what they were saying when they interrupted
-these other \sc{ufo} investigators.
-
-THIRTY-TWO
-7\slash 8\slash 717
-My interview with Mark Simons, the rain therapy man, was overwhelming. As with ""'Notes on Torres," I do not feel that I now have the ability
-to analyze this experience for any ''significance" or logical rationale.
-
-I will simply narrate what happened, with the topical aside that today
-as I write this it is raining.
-
-Mark Simons works professionally as a psychiatric nurse. He showed
-me his identification card with his color picture on it. This card is an
-ordinary, up-to-date work ID card. I suppose he has found it necessary to
-show this card to people before embarking on any discussion of \sc{ufo}s
-and rain therapy.
-
-After I had looked at his card and indicated that I thought it was valid
-and would trust him, Mark gave me his personal calling card, on which
-
-
-he is identified as "'occult historian."
-
-This gave me a bit of a jolt as in the novel which I wrote so quickly
-after my \sc{ufo} experiences in Salem (p. 00) there is a pivotal character
-named Benjamin X. Emery who remembers being a cosmic historian on
-another planet during another lifetime and (as is Mark Simons) now is
-significantly concerned with Earth as one of the only water-bearing
-planets, designated in my novel intergalactically as Oceana.
-
-Not only that, Rosie! . . . but Mark Simons resembles my character
-Benjamin X. Emery both in personality and inclination.
-
-If you want to find out about Benjamin X. Emery you can read my
-novel Project Midas, to be published in 1979 by Athelion Press.
-
-Non-fictionally, Mark Simons told me that he got interested in \sc{ufo}
-research when he was younger due to an incident which had occurred ata
-family wedding, when his sister's hushand, who at that time was
-involved with military research of some sort, reacted violently to Mark's
-question on \sc{ufo}s, telling him: "'Shut up on this subject, or I'll embarrass your sister."" Subsequent to this incident, Mark told me, he began to
-collect all the data and anecdotes on \sc{ufo}s which he could gather. It was
-not until 1974, however, that Mark actually encountered any \sc{ufo}
-phenomena. He was driving toward Randolph, Massachusetts on a
-Saturday night, going down Route 29 west toward Route 2%,
-
-As Mark approached Route 24, he saw two bright white lights coming
-toward him. These were double lights about twelve feet apart, as on the
-wings of a plane.
-
-Remember Donna, Donna's brother Michael, the paramedic and the
-planes? (Section 19.)
-
-These lights then veered to the side of the road and became stationary,
-appearing---Mark says---like the headlights of a car parked on a ridge.
-Which means that the lights jumped suddenly from a position twelve feet
-apart and straight ahead of Mark to a position ninety degrees divergent
-from this and four feet apart.
-
-Subsequent to witnessing this |merestmg aeronautical event, Mark
-slowed down his car and parked it at the side of the road near the junction
-of Route 179 and Route 24. He got out of the car to look back at the lights
-and found that some object of undetermined shape (it is difficult to see
-
-the shape of an object when it is right over your head) was hovering over
-his head.
-
-
-Mark did not want to create any disturbance or make any dramatic
-report of this incident due to the nature of his job. Certainly, a psychiatric nurse who sees a low-flying plane jump ninety degrees in mid-air and
-become a car parked on a ridge where there is no ridge might be subject
-to serious job re-evaluation. He says that he went back to the junction in
-broad daylight and not only was there no trace of the object, there was no
-trace of any ridge on which a car or other source of light could have been
-parked.
-
-Mark broke off here in his narration to tell me his theories about the
-rain resembling forcefields, that entering an energy vortex feels like
-entering a ""wet field" as a sheet of rain hits your face or the wind makes
-a rain-vortex about your body.
-
-Then he went on to describe his mini-\sc{ufo} sighting, an event which
-Mark describes as ''changing his personality."
-
-He had just taken a shower and was lying in bed at home reading the
-book Impossible Possibilities by Jacques Berger and Louis Pawels,
-when he looked up and off to the side down the hallway adjoining his
-room and saw---(at this point, Mark pulled a penlight flashlight from his
-pocket, depressed the end button, and slowly moved the light toward
-me)---a tiny light the size of an ordinary penlight moving toward him.
-This light accelerated quickly, hit him in the chest, dropped down into
-his lap and then vanished.
-
-Mark searched his room, he says, but could find no trace of this light,
-or any other unidentified object on the floor or in his bed.
-
-Later on that night, he became aware that he was not the same person
-as he had been formerly, but---as he describes it---had experienced a
-"'change of personality"', during which he acquired an identity which is
-functional in terms of cosmic plan.
-
-Mark Simons told me that he believes he had called me on July 4 and
-then come to my office on July 7 for a specific purpose. He told me that
-he was born on Easter Sunday in 1928. In 1928, Easter Sunday fell on
-April 8. Written in numbers, this date is 4\slash 8\slash 28. Written in numbers,
-the date of our conversation was 7\slash 7\slash 77.
-
-"Four sevens," Mark Simons informed me, '""make twenty-eight."
-This is correct, but four eights made thirty-two, so that the date of
-Mark's birth is significantly rendered even, whereas the date of our
-
-
-conversation, being a combination of 49 and 77, is significantly odd.
-
-In the course of our conversation, Mark told me about someone
-named Maurice K. Jessup. He felt that Jessup had been murdered, and
-that the circumstances of his murder had been made to look like a
-suicide.
-
-According to Simons, Jessup had written three letters entitled the
-*Allende Letters"" which had to do with \sc{ufo} contact. Jessup sent these
-letters to an Admiral at the Naval offices in Washington (I am relating
-this story now as it was told to me, without making any attempt at
-verification, which is impossible) with the inscription *'Happy Easter!"
-written on the envelope.
-
-Whether or not Jessup actually did this, I find Mark's description of
-the Happy Easter memo to be significantly like the Congratulations
-motif, which has been the working theme.of this project since I first
-received the high sign from California.
-
-Subsequent to Jessup's letter of congratulations to the U.S. Navy,
-terms from Jessup's works began---Mark Simons asserts---to appear in
-official memos issued by the government.
-
-These terms, according to Simons (remember: I have absolutely no
-way to check this at this date) include such concepts as '"hyperspace'
-and '"'energy vortex."
-
-I don't know. I am simply relating this story as it was related*to me. If
-it is true, of course, it is outrageous.
-
-Simons once again broke off his narration on \sc{ufo} phenomena to tell
-me that gypsies have for years known about these forcefields and vortex
-manifestations, but that they would never reveal their mastery of psychic
-effects to a gorgio. I am a bit of a gypsy myself, and was about to tell him
-that gypsies could indeed be very persuasive mentally when Simons
-reached into the pile of books he had brought to my office and---in true
-gypsy fashion---brought forth the xerox of a document entitled: Introductory Space Science, volume II, Department of Physics, United States
-Air Force Acadenty, which someone had lightfingered off the premises
-of the Air Force Academy in Colorado several years ago.
-
-Fetchingly, Simons has interleaved his copy of this document with
-decals and newspaper clippings which advertise unusual ariel
-phenomena from the non-military and secular point of view.
-
-
-At this point, my writing of this narration was broken off by Rita
-Warnock, who was burning incense in a fire just outside my office.
-
-She called me to come outside and tell her what shapes I saw in the
-flames. I told her that I saw obstacles in her business affairs, and she told
-me that this was true.
-
-Now, back once again seated in my office, I am going to copy section
-33.2, paragraph 6 of what is labeled Introductory Space Science, volume
-II: **6. Poorly understood psychological phenomena. Psychologists are
-the first to admit that there are many facets of psychic phenomena which
-have not been adequately explored. Few data are available to determine
-how these phenomena may relate to the \sc{ufo} problem, but one must at
-least allow for the possibility that there may be some effects."
-
-"Effects!?"" Effects of what? What sort of effects?
-
-Mark Simons links \sc{ufo} presence to the waters of earth. He told me
-that he is building up a *'thought grid" to this effect by convincing
-people in various locations that the rain is important. Walking in the
-driving rain in a long army-surplus rubber slicker, he told me, increases
-psychic perception.
-
-However, Mark added that this is a matter of belief. If you do not
-believe that rain increases your psychic perception, then it will not
-increase your psychic perception.
-
-Then, Mark introduced the possibility that he might be contradicting
-himself by telling me that ionization of the atmosphere occurs during
-rain, causing lightning and thunder.
-
-An individual very sensitive to levels of ionization, as Mark became
-subsequent to his \sc{ufo} sighting in 1974, might very easily find psychic
-perception enhanced during any change of electrical balance in the
-atmosphere.
-
-I have not noticed that I turn on in a rainstorm. Although, as I
-mentioned, it is raining today as I write this section.
-
-THIRTY-THREE
-7\slash 9\slash 77
-Feeling impatient and also exhilarated by the possible importance of an
-Air Force document on \sc{ufo}s, I called Karnstedt in California to ask if
-he knew anyone who had been studying the official intrigue attached to
-
-
-\sc{ufo} research.
-
-He seemed amused and told me that he had just finished talking to a
-group of people who were planning a "\sc{ufo} fair" in Oakland, California.
-
-I asked him if he needed any strolling players, and there was a short,
-incredulous pause, I had \sc{ufo}ed him again. Karnstedt then told me that
-they were planning to pull out all the stops at the \sc{ufo} fair, and that he
-himself might perhaps be seen wearing an aviator's helmet and goggles.
-
-Additionally, he told me that he knew nothing at the moment about
-government \sc{ufo} intrigue, but that he had recently spent one entire
-coffee break with Simon Herrick, discussing the book which Herrick is
-now writing on synchronicity.
-
-Karnstedt found it an interesting synchronous event that I should be
-writing a book which so evidently includes the ""'coincidental'"" aspects
-of meaningful \sc{ufo} contactee activity at.the same time as Simon Herrick, whom I do not know personally, is actively engaged in writing a
-book on the same topic.
-
-Karnstedt offered to put me into a more materially direct contact with
-Herrick, but I do not know that this is really necessary. We seem
-somehow to be tuned into the same channel.
-
-Karnstedt told me that many people on the coast now feel that they are
-being used as mediumistic channels of some sort by \sc{ufo}s or Some other
-form of highly-developed intelligence.
+So while I am still waiting for word on the more benign aspects of interdimensional energy channeling, I am going to drop these Canadian Nazis another line and ask what they were saying when they interrupted these other \sc{ufo} investigators.
 
-I told him that I agreed with this, but did not remind him that when I
-was in California I had met him "'coincidentally"" in context with Warren
-Sequoia's wife's prophecy on Simon Herrick. I felt that this was part of a
-developing event which should be allowed to develop without direct
-explanation.
-
-Five minutes after I disconnected from Karnstedt, my phone rang and
-it was a man asking for a "'rebirth"" experience.
-
-He told me that "'rebirth" was all the rage now in California, and that
-he had to go down to Provincetown, Massachusetts now for the
-weekend, but would call me later on next week, so that we could discuss
-rebirth in more detail.
-
-Oh yeah! What an interesting coincidence that was . . . I felt like
-calling Karnstedt back to register this event, but still am letting this
-California connection develop without direct explanation.
+% THIRTY-TWO
+\nonum\sec THIRTY-TWO
 
+\rightline{7\slash 8\slash 717}
+\vskip 0.5em
+
+My interview with Mark Simons, the rain therapy man, was overwhelming. As with \dq{Notes on Torres,} I do not feel that I now have the ability to analyze this experience for any \dq{significance} or logical rationale.
+
+I will simply narrate what happened, with the topical aside that today as I write this it is raining.
+
+Mark Simons works professionally as a psychiatric nurse. He showed me his identification card with his color picture on it. This card is an ordinary, up-to-date work \sc{id} card. I suppose he has found it necessary to show this card to people before embarking on any discussion of \sc{ufo}s and rain therapy.
+
+After I had looked at his card and indicated that I thought it was valid and would trust him, Mark gave me his personal calling card, on which he is identified as \dq{occult historian.}
+
+This gave me a bit of a jolt as in the novel which I wrote so quickly after my \sc{ufo} experiences in Salem (p. 00)\ednote{not sure i understand this} there is a pivotal character named Benjamin X. Emery who remembers being a cosmic historian on another planet during another lifetime and (as is Mark Simons) now is significantly concerned with Earth as one of the only water-bearing planets, designated in my novel intergalactically as Oceana.
+
+Not only that, Rosie! \ld\ but Mark Simons resembles my character Benjamin X. Emery both in personality and inclination.
+
+If you want to find out about Benjamin X. Emery you can read my novel \bt{Project Midas}, to be published in 1979 by Anthelion Press.
+
+Non-fictionally, Mark Simons told me that he got interested in \sc{ufo} research when he was younger due to an incident which had occurred ata family wedding, when his sister's hushand, who at that time was involved with military research of some sort, reacted violently to Mark's question on \sc{ufo}s, telling him: \dq{Shut up on this subject, or I'll embarrass your sister.} Subsequent to this incident, Mark told me, he began to collect all the data and anecdotes on \sc{ufo}s which he could gather. It was not until 1974, however, that Mark actually encountered any \sc{ufo} phenomena. He was driving toward Randolph, Massachusetts on a Saturday night, going down Route 29 west toward Route 24,
+
+As Mark approached Route 24, he saw two bright white lights coming toward him. These were double lights about twelve feet apart, as on the wings of a plane.
+
+Remember Donna, Donna's brother Michael, the paramedic and the planes? (Section 19.)
+
+These lights then veered to the side of the road and became stationary, appearing---Mark says---like the headlights of a car parked on a ridge.  Which means that the lights jumped suddenly from a position twelve feet apart and straight ahead of Mark to a position ninety degrees divergent from this and four feet apart.
+
+Subsequent to witnessing this interesting \ae ronautical event, Mark slowed down his car and parked it at the side of the road near the junction of Route 179 and Route 24. He got out of the car to look back at the lights and found that some object of undetermined shape (it is difficult to see the shape of an object when it is right over your head) was hovering over his head.
+
+Mark did not want to create any disturbance or make any dramatic report of this incident due to the nature of his job. Certainly, a psychiatric nurse who sees a low-flying plane jump ninety degrees in mid-air and become a car parked on a ridge where there is no ridge might be subject to serious job re-evaluation. He says that he went back to the junction in broad daylight and not only was there no trace of the object, there was no trace of any ridge on which a car or other source of light could have been parked.
+
+Mark broke off here in his narration to tell me his theories about the rain resembling forcefields, that entering an energy vortex feels like entering a \dq{wet field} as a sheet of rain hits your face or the wind makes a rain-vortex about your body.
+
+Then he went on to describe his mini-\sc{ufo} sighting, an event which Mark describes as \dq{changing his personality.}
+
+He had just taken a shower and was lying in bed at home reading the book bt{Impossible Possibilities} by Jacques Berger and Louis Pawels, when he looked up and off to the side down the hallway adjoining his room and saw---(at this point, Mark pulled a penlight flashlight from his pocket, depressed the end button, and slowly moved the light toward me)---a tiny light the size of an ordinary penlight moving toward him.  This light accelerated quickly, hit him in the chest, dropped down into his lap and then vanished.
+
+Mark searched his room, he says, but could find no trace of this light, or any other unidentified object on the floor or in his bed.
+
+Later on that night, he became aware that he was not the same person as he had been formerly, but---as he describes it---had experienced a \dq{change of personality}, during which he acquired an identity which is functional in terms of cosmic plan.
+
+Mark Simons told me that he believes he had called me on July 4 and then come to my office on July 7 for a specific purpose. He told me that he was born on Easter Sunday in 1928. In 1928, Easter Sunday fell on April 8. Written in numbers, this date is 4\slash 8\slash 28. Written in numbers, the date of our conversation was 7\slash 7\slash 77.
+
+\dq{Four sevens,} Mark Simons informed me, \dq{make twenty-eight.} This is correct, but four eights made thirty-two, so that the date of Mark's birth is significantly rendered even, whereas the date of our conversation, being a combination of 49 and 77, is significantly odd.
+
+In the course of our conversation, Mark told me about someone named Maurice K. Jessup. He felt that Jessup had been murdered, and that the circumstances of his murder had been made to look like a suicide.
+
+According to Simons, Jessup had written three letters entitled the \dq{Allende Letters} which had to do with \sc{ufo} contact. Jessup sent these letters to an Admiral at the Naval offices in Washington (I am relating this story now as it was told to me, without making any attempt at verification, which is impossible) with the inscription \dq{Happy Easter!} written on the envelope.
+
+Whether or not Jessup actually did this, I find Mark's description of the \e{Happy Easter} memo to be significantly like the \e{Congratulations} motif, which has been the working theme of this project since I first received the high sign from California.
+
+Subsequent to Jessup's letter of congratulations to the U.S. Navy, terms from Jessup's works began---Mark Simons asserts---to appear in official memos issued by the government.
+
+These terms, according to Simons (remember: I have absolutely no way to check this at this date) include such concepts as \dq{hyperspace} and \dq{energy vortex.}
+
+I don't know. I am simply relating this story as it was related to me. If it is true, of course, it is outrageous.
 
-THIRTY-FOUR
-7\slash 11\slash 77
-Feeling encouraged by my recent use of the telephone, I think today I
-will call Mark Simons and ask for more details on the murder of Maurice
-K. Jessup.
+Simons once again broke off his narration on \sc{ufo} phenomena to tell me that gypsies have for years known about these forcefields and vortex manifestations, but that they would never reveal their mastery of psychic effects to a gorgio. I am a bit of a gypsy myself, and was about to tell him that gypsies could indeed be very persuasive mentally when Simons reached into the pile of books he had brought to my office and---in true gypsy fashion---brought forth the xerox of a document entitled: \bt{Introductory Space Science, volume II, Department of Physics, United States Air Force Academy}, which someone had lightfingered off the premises of the Air Force Academy in Colorado several years ago.
+
+Fetchingly, Simons has interleaved his copy of this document with decals and newspaper clippings which advertise unusual ariel phenomena from the non-military and secular point of view.
+
+At this point, my writing of this narration was broken off by Rita Warnock, who was burning incense in a fire just outside my office.
+
+She called me to come outside and tell her what shapes I saw in the flames. I told her that I saw obstacles in her business affairs, and she told me that this was true.
+
+Now, back once again seated in my office, I am going to copy section 33.2, paragraph 6 of what is labeled \e{Introductory Space Science, volume II}: \dq{6. Poorly understood psychological phenomena. Psychologists are the first to admit that there are many facets of psychic phenomena which have not been adequately explored. Few data are available to determine how these phenomena may relate to the \sc{ufo} problem, but one must at least allow for the possibility that there may be some effects.}
+
+\dq{Effects!?} Effects of what? What sort of effects?
+
+Mark Simons links \sc{ufo} presence to the waters of earth. He told me that he is building up a \dq{thought grid} to this effect by convincing people in various locations that the rain is important. Walking in the driving rain in a long army-surplus rubber slicker, he told me, increases psychic perception.
+
+However, Mark added that this is a matter of belief. If you do not believe that rain increases your psychic perception, then it will not increase your psychic perception.
+
+Then, Mark introduced the possibility that he might be contradicting himself by telling me that ionization of the atmosphere occurs during rain, causing lightning and thunder.
+
+An individual very sensitive to levels of ionization, as Mark became subsequent to his \sc{ufo} sighting in 1974, might very easily find psychic perception enhanced during any change of electrical balance in the atmosphere.
+
+I have not noticed that I turn on in a rainstorm. Although, as I mentioned, it is raining today as I write this section.
+
+% THIRTY-THREE
+\nonum\sec THIRTY-THREE
+
+\rightline{7\slash 9\slash 77}
+\vskip 0.5em
+
+Feeling impatient and also exhilarated by the possible importance of an Air Force document on \sc{ufo}s, I called Karnstedt in California to ask if he knew anyone who had been studying the official intrigue attached to \sc{ufo} research.
+
+He seemed amused and told me that he had just finished talking to a group of people who were planning a \dq{\sc{ufo} fair} in Oakland, California.
+
+I asked him if he needed any strolling players, and there was a short, incredulous pause, I had \sc{ufo}ed him again. Karnstedt then told me that they were planning to pull out all the stops at the \sc{ufo} fair, and that he himself might perhaps be seen wearing an aviator's helmet and goggles.
+
+Additionally, he told me that he knew nothing at the moment about government \sc{ufo} intrigue, but that he had recently spent one entire coffee break with Simon Herrick, discussing the book which Herrick is now writing on synchronicity.
+
+Karnstedt found it an interesting synchronous event that I should be writing a book which so evidently includes the \dq{coincidental} aspects of meaningful \sc{ufo} contactee activity at.the same time as Simon Herrick, whom I do not know personally, is actively engaged in writing a book on the same topic.
+
+Karnstedt offered to put me into a more materially direct contact with Herrick, but I do not know that this is really necessary. We seem somehow to be tuned into the same channel.
+
+Karnstedt told me that many people on the coast now feel that they are being used as mediumistic channels of some sort by \sc{ufo}s or Some other form of highly-developed intelligence.
+
+I told him that I agreed with this, but did not remind him that when I was in California I had met him \dq{coincidentally} in context with Warren Sequoia's wife's prophecy on Simon Herrick. I felt that this was part of a developing event which should be allowed to develop without direct explanation.
+
+Five minutes after I disconnected from Karnstedt, my phone rang and it was a man asking for a \dq{rebirth} experience.
+
+He told me that \dq{rebirth} was all the rage now in California, and that he had to go down to Provincetown, Massachusetts now for the weekend, but would call me later on next week, so that we could discuss rebirth in more detail.
+
+Oh yeah! What an interesting coincidence that was \ld\ I felt like calling Karnstedt back to register this event, but still am letting this California connection develop without direct explanation.
+
+% THIRTY-FOUR
+\nonum\sec THIRTY-FOUR
+
+\rightline{7\slash 11\slash 77}
+\vskip 0.5em
+
+Feeling encouraged by my recent use of the telephone, I think today I will call Mark Simons and ask for more details on the murder of Maurice K. Jessup.
 
 And now, once again: Congratulations to myself!
 
-Just before I called Simons I checked my mailbox, which contained a
-letter from Ben Shenks telling me that he had read his copy of *'Notes on
-Torres™ and telling me that I was incorrect, that he had no romantic
-interest in me.
-
-In terms of telepathic correspondences, he did not mention any
-romantic interest I might have had in himself truly, Ben Shenks, but went
-on in this letter to tell me that the actor James Fox who played opposite
-Mick Jagger in the pseudo-Satanic movie Performance has become a
-"loud Christian" and suggested that I consider this Fox in the list of
-Satanic possibilities. (p. 59) mentioned in *"Notes on Torres'" (Section
-30). Shenks says he finds this article on Torres ""quite definitely resonant with meaningful coincidences which go nowhere." Perhaps, as I
-discussed with Karnstedt, they are leading toward some sort of synchronistic performance of events.
-
-So: done! It has been done, Shenks! I have included the actor James
-Fox in my list of possible Satanic identities.
-
-Further on in his letter, Shenks quotes from the poet William Butler
-Yeats: ""'I have heard my wife in the broken speech of some quite
-ordinary dream use tricks of speech characteristic of the philosophic
-voices . . . spirits do not tell a man what is true but create such
-conditions, such as a crisis of fate, that the man is compelled to listen to
-his Daimon. The blessed spirits must be sought within the self which is
-common to all.""
-
-Shenks adds: *"Well, I think an interesting, perhaps exciting book
-might be put together from your short pieces, such as "Notes,"
-arranged, if you will, to form an evolutionary history of your own
-experiences with the various worlds."
-
-This is exactly what I am attempting to do in Congratulations! The
-\sc{ufo} Reality, although I have found in the course of this research that my
-evolutionary history does in fact intersect with quite a few other evolutionary histories, including Shenks'.
-
-
-He continues, without any knowledge of my conversation with the
-"\sc{ufo} fair" contingent, to suggest: "It would take, then, a simple
-introductory piece to string them plausibly together in a kind of exhibition."" Agreed! Before I got your letter, I agreed with you!
-
-EXHIBITION THIRTY-FIVE
-I asked Mark Simons (having finally put down my California correspondence and walked over to the local phone) if he had gotten my letter
-asking him to duplicate the purported Air Force manual on \sc{ufo}s.
-
-He told me that he had gotten my letter and that he would send me this
-manual to xerox on the condition that I send him a notorized letter
-guaranteeing that his name be used in this book. Mark Simons is named
-Andrew Galligan.
-
-Andrew told me that Maurice K. Jessup was found dead in a station
-wagon parked somewhere in Georgia. Hesays that he has seen the xerox
-of a coroner's certificate which states that death was due to monoxide
-poisoning. The verdict at the time of Jessup's death was suicide, but his
-friends felt differently. Galligan told me that Jessup was not the sort of
-man who would commit suicide. His book The Case For \sc{ufo}s, which
-was issued in 1955 on Citadel Press (according to Galligan) was one of
-the first in the field and was primary in generating interest in such topics
-as the Bermuda Triangle mystery. N
-
-In connection with this, Andrew Galligan also mentioned that the
-disappearance of Flight 19 (whatever that was) into the Bermuda
-Triangle in 1945 was one of the most interesting sections of Jessup's
-book, and this disappearance has never been solved.
-
-Galligan added, in connection with rain therapy, that he has been to
-psychiatrists and psychologists in an effort to understand the mental
-changes which occur in him during a rainstorm. These experts have all
-told him that they feel that his desire to walk in the rain in a heavy rubber
-army-surplus slicker has to do with some sort of bizarre sexual disturbance. I .
-
-"Why then," asks Andrew Galligan, ""did I develop this enjoyment of
-the rain at nine years of age? I have always liked to walk in the rain in a
-
-slicker. It was only recently that I became aware of the differing energy
-levels during rain." '
-
-
-"Oh," I answered, '"'are you aware of the ionization effect during
-rain? In my notes I have already postulated that you are probably
-hypersensitive to the electrical changes in the atmosphere which always
-occur in conjunction with precipitation."
-
-Galligan referred me to Wilhelm Reich and his idea of the "energy
-accumulator."" Briefly, Reich had the idea that orgone energy (Section
-30, page 67) has to be personally accumulated within a chamber of some
-sort (the phone booth, the slicker, the pyramid, the station wagon) in
-order to draw corresponding orgone energy from the atmosphere, or to
-set up a connection between the individual and trans-dimensional
-sources of orgone energy.
-
-This seems to me to be a lot like the ancient idea that the best channel
-for mediumistic communication is a person whose inner concerns are
-known clearly. This is the basis of L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology
-program, though he applies the clearing of inner processes to a procedure called auditing.
-
-I have a letter from a local Scientologist recommending to me their
-para-Scientology division. She tells me that during the process of
-auditing ""'a lot of (psychic phenomena) can be verified and experienced."
-
-The process of sorting, remembering and consciously dealing with
-personal concerns builds the ability to sort, remember and deal with
-ideas which are coming in from the general atmosphere by \sc{esp}, and
-implements the ability to distinguish between personal fantasies and
-genuine psychical communications.
+Just before I called Simons I checked my mailbox, which contained a letter from Ben Shenks telling me that he had read his copy of "Notes on Torres" and telling me that I was incorrect, that he had no romantic interest in me.
 
-This is true metaphysically.
+In terms of telepathic correspondences, he did not mention any romantic interest I might have had in himself truly, Ben Shenks, but went on in this letter to tell me that the actor James Fox who played opposite Mick Jagger in the pseudo-Satanic movie \filmtitle{Performance} has become a \dq{loud Christian} and suggested that I consider this Fox in the list of Satanic possibilities. (p. 59)\ednote{update ref} mentioned in \dq{Notes on Torres} (Section 30). Shenks says he finds this article on Torres \dq{quite definitely resonant with meaningful coincidences which go nowhere.} Perhaps, as I discussed with Karnstedt, they are leading toward some sort of synchronistic performance of events.
+
+So: done! It has been done, Shenks! I have included the actor James Fox in my list of possible Satanic identities.
+
+Further on in his letter, Shenks quotes from the poet William Butler Yeats: \dq{I have heard my wife in the broken speech of some quite ordinary dream use tricks of speech characteristic of the philosophic voices \ld\ spirits do not tell a man what is true but create such conditions, such as a crisis of fate, that the man is compelled to listen to his Daimon. The blessed spirits must be sought within the self which is common to all.}
+
+Shenks adds: \dq{Well, I think an interesting, perhaps exciting book might be put together from your short pieces, such as \sq{Notes,} arranged, if you will, to form an evolutionary history of your own experiences with the various worlds.}
+
+This is exactly what I am attempting to do in \bt{Congratulations! The \sc{ufo} Reality}, although I have found in the course of this research that my evolutionary history does in fact intersect with quite a few other evolutionary histories, including Shenks'.
+
+He continues, without any knowledge of my conversation with the \dq{\sc{ufo} fair} contingent, to suggest: \dq{It would take, then, a simple introductory piece to string them plausibly together in a kind of exhibition.} Agreed! Before I got your letter, I agreed with you!
 
-Galligan's perceptions also have a physiological basis. In the human
-body, ionic balance is maintained in the neural system by an interchange
-of charge between sodium and potassium ion. These sodium (Na) and
-potassium (K) fluids do not actually mix in the cell, but are separated by
-a semipermeable membrane.
+% EXHIBITION THIRTY-FIVE
+\nonum\chap EXHIBITION THIRTY-FIVE
 
-The coding and efficiency of the nervous system has intimately to do
-with this ionic balance.
+I asked Mark Simons (having finally put down my California correspondence and walked over to the local phone) if he had gotten my letter asking him to duplicate the purported Air Force manual on \sc{ufo}s.
 
-In an elementary chemistry textbook which I have just picked up from
-the floor, it is stated: '"When an ionic solid is placed in water, an
-equilibrium is established between the ions in the saturated solution and
+He told me that he had gotten my letter and that he would send me this manual to xerox on the condition that I send him a notorized letter guaranteeing that his name be used in this book. Mark Simons is named Andrew Galligan.
 
+Andrew told me that Maurice K. Jessup was found dead in a station wagon parked somewhere in Georgia. Hesays that he has seen the xerox of a coroner's certificate which states that death was due to monoxide poisoning. The verdict at the time of Jessup's death was suicide, but his friends felt differently. Galligan told me that Jessup was not the sort of man who would commit suicide. His book \bt{The Case For \sc{ufo}s}, which was issued in 1955 on Citadel Press (according to Galligan) was one of the first in the field and was primary in generating interest in such topics as the Bermuda Triangle mystery. 
 
-the excess solid phase."
+In connection with this, Andrew Galligan also mentioned that the disappearance of Flight 19 (whatever that was) into the Bermuda Triangle in 1945 was one of the most interesting sections of Jessup's book, and this disappearance has never been solved.
 
-Which means that when a material showing ionic action is placed in
-water, the ionic density of the water has an effect on the ionic balance of
-the material that has been placed in the water. Considering the nervous
-system of Galligan, (as it is contained within his skin) to be an ionic
-solid composed of sodium and potassium ions, it can be easily seen that
-when Galligan walks out into the watery solution of a rainy day, the ionic
-density of the atmosphere is going to affect his sodium\slash potassium
-registry system, thus causing a change in perceptions registered within
-the nervous system. (N2,02, Ar, CO2, H2, Ne, He, Kr, Ze) +YH20) =
-(air) + (H+ + OH-)
+Galligan added, in connection with rain therapy, that he has been to psychiatrists and psychologists in an effort to understand the mental changes which occur in him during a rainstorm. These experts have all told him that they feel that his desire to walk in the rain in a heavy rubber army-surplus slicker has to do with some sort of bizarre sexual disturbance. 
 
-Because Galligan's nervous system is hypersensitized anyway, he
-feels this adjustment strongly.
+\dq{Why then,} asks Andrew Galligan, \dq{did I develop this enjoyment of the rain at nine years of age? I have always liked to walk in the rain in a slicker. It was only recently that I became aware of the differing energy levels during rain.} 
 
-In addition to this, Galligan has told me that he is Irish and has traced
-his geneology back to a family crest which bears the winged horse,
-Pegasus. Above this crest, says Galligan, there is the motto: "'I long to
-see the things which are above."
+\dq{Oh,} I answered, \dq{are you aware of the ionization effect during rain? In my notes I have already postulated that you are probably hypersensitive to the electrical changes in the atmosphere which always occur in conjunction with precipitation.}
 
-I am reminded in this connection of a poem by Paddy Kavanagh
-entitled Pegasus. I was fortunate enough to have had the poet himself
-recite Pegasus to me in its entirety at a cocktail party, so I have retained
-strong feelings of irony concerning the Irish winged horse.
+Galligan referred me to Wilhelm Reich and his idea of the \dq{energy accumulator.} Briefly, Reich had the idea that orgone energy (Section 30, page 67)\ednote{update ref} has to be personally accumulated within a chamber of some sort (the phone booth, the slicker, the pyramid, the station wagon) in order to draw corresponding orgone energy from the atmosphere, or to set up a connection between the individual and trans-dimensional sources of orgone energy.
 
-Kavanagh's poem begins: *"My soul was a horse for sale in many fairs
+This seems to me to be a lot like the ancient idea that the best channel for mediumistic communication is a person whose inner concerns are known clearly. This is the basis of L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology program, though he applies the clearing of inner processes to a procedure called auditing.
 
-. " and goes on to describe how he tried to sell his soul in all the fancy
-markets of the world, but no one would have it until he let it go free,
-when it sprouted wings and became his imagination.
+I have a letter from a local Scientologist recommending to me their para-Scientology division. She tells me that during the process of auditing \dq{a lot of (psychic phenomena) can be verified and experienced.}
 
+The process of sorting, remembering and consciously dealing with personal concerns builds the ability to sort, remember and deal with ideas which are coming in from the general atmosphere by \sc{esp}, and implements the ability to distinguish between personal fantasies and genuine psychical communications.
 
-But let us now return ourselves to before his soul became his imagination: ""Where the tinkers quarrel," complains Kavanagh, "I went down
-with my horse, my soul. I cried: 'Who will bid me half a crown?' From
-their rowdy bargaining, not one turned."
+This is true metaphysically.
+
+Galligan's perceptions also have a physiological basis. In the human body, ionic balance is maintained in the neural system by an interchange of charge between sodium and potassium ion. These sodium (Na) and potassium (K) fluids do not actually mix in the cell, but are separated by a semipermeable membrane.
+
+The coding and efficiency of the nervous system has intimately to do with this ionic balance.
+
+In an elementary chemistry textbook which I have just picked up from the floor, it is stated: \dq{When an ionic solid is placed in water, an equilibrium is established between the ions in the saturated solution and the excess solid phase.}
+
+\midinsert
+\centerline{\picw=3.5\inspic{img/neural.png}}
+\cskip
+\caption/f[neural]
+\endinsert 
+
+Which means that when a material showing ionic action is placed in water, the ionic density of the water has an effect on the ionic balance of the material that has been placed in the water. Considering the nervous system of Galligan, (as it is contained within his skin) to be an ionic solid composed of sodium and potassium ions, it can be easily seen that when Galligan walks out into the watery solution of a rainy day, the ionic density of the atmosphere is going to affect his sodium\slash potassium registry system, thus causing a change in perceptions registered within the nervous system. $(N_2, O_2, Ar, CO_2, H_2, Ne, He, Kr, Ze) + (H_2O) = (air) + (H_{+} + OH_{-})$
+
+Because Galligan's nervous system is hypersensitized anyway, he feels this adjustment strongly.
+
+In addition to this, Galligan has told me that he is Irish and has traced his geneology back to a family crest which bears the winged horse, Pegasus. Above this crest, says Galligan, there is the motto: \dq{I long to see the things which are above.}
+
+I am reminded in this connection of a poem by Paddy Kavanagh entitled \poemtitle{Pegasus}. I was fortunate enough to have had the poet himself recite \ptoemtitle{Pegasus} to me in its entirety at a cocktail party, so I have retained strong feelings of irony concerning the Irish winged horse.
+
+Kavanagh's poem begins: \dq{My soul was a horse for sale in many fairs\ld} and goes on to describe how he tried to sell his soul in all the fancy markets of the world, but no one would have it until he let it go free, when it sprouted wings and became his imagination.
+
+But let us now return ourselves to before his soul became his imagination: \dq{Where the tinkers quarrel,} complains Kavanagh, \dq{I went down with my horse, my soul. I cried: \sq{Who will bid me half a crown?} From their rowdy bargaining, not one turned.}
 
 The tinkers seem to know an old horse when they see one.
 
-Perhaps this is why Galligan fecls that the gypsies must know so much
-about \sc{ufo}s.
-
-THIRTY-SIX
-Now that we are floundering in possible rational and physiological
-explanations for all of these \sc{ufo} sightings, I would like to advance the
-theory that the mental processes which I have been documenting are
-utterly irrational.
-
-They are irrational in the profoundest sense that anything can be
-irrational: the \sc{ufo} reality does not fit our standard notions of what a
-\sc{ufo} should be.
-
-It is not like Star Wars. It is not like sexual repression. It is not like
-orgone containment. It is not like psychic healing. It is not like any
-ordinary dream or nightmare. It is very serious. It is like being contacted
-from another dimension. It is like having your perceptions fundamentally altered by surprise, and in this respect it is most like rocket movie,
-the idea advanced by my six-year-old son.
-
-THIRTY-SEVEN
-Lie back, folks: this room is the rocket. You are going to need no other
-entertainment. Turn off your TV sets.
-
-You might as well turn off your TV sets. If you do leave them on, you
-are going to experience electrical disturbance.
-
-Why visit the Bermuda Triangle? You can disappear right here at
-home. You don't want to disappear? Why, then: what is the most painful
-thing that ever happened to you?
-
-Because sudden expansion of consciousness by influx of pranic
-energy into the nervous system will activate that strongly-implanted
-memory. You may become hypersensitive to pain as well as to pleasure
-and philosophical profundity.
-
-In the throes of this painful hypersensitivity, you may go out into your
-
-
-car and turn on the carbon monoxide (p. 72) or try to strangle your
-professor during a discussion of Macbeth (p. 4). You might also write an
-incomprehensible paper on your strange experience with psychic healing (Section 30!) or (worse!) call all of the newspapers and report that
-your orgone collection cabinet cures cancer (p. 67), which is what Reich
-went to jail for claiming.
-
-But . .. oh no! ... not me, Rosie!
-
-As a result of the strong pranic influx which I experienced during the
-course of my association with Torres, and the spirit entities associated
-with Torres, memories of painful experience were activated through the
-novel Operation Dancing Dog.
-
-Fox-Knipscheer's novel, whether I located this volume by use of
-subconscious \sc{esp} or as a result of spirit manipulation of my faculties, is
-directly relevant to several of my own ;very painful and conflictive
-memories.
-
-At the time I wrote the article ''Notes on Tcrres,'" I did not feel ready
-to expose this fact. In the course of redrafting this book, I have changed
-my mind.
-
-I will not go into gruesome detail, but I will list the correspondence: a)
-My marriage was violent, and in the course of this mutual battle I
-sustained cuts and bruises, had my clothes ripped off severaltimes and
-was a part of accusations and counter-accusations of adultery and
-psychic fraud: this parallels several of the violent sex scenes in the book
-. . . How exactly, you will never know, Rosie! b) Since discovering a
-book on Gestapo practices in the library of a close associate in 1970, I
-have had fears about Nazi association with government employees. The
-combination of juggling the crazy Nazi publishers in Canada and tales of
-a Nazi spy ring in Fox-Knipscheer's book with my latent concern with
-private Gestapo sadism led me not to mention this possibility in my
-original article. ¢) The California scene of call girls, strange eccentric
-rich ladies and cocktail parties is exactly the same as the California scene
-in which (as I once privately felt) several mutual friends of myself and
-Ben Shenks are now going to hell in a handcart. Shenks may deny this,
-(p. 75) but James Fox would not deny it. If it is actually true, as Shenks
-reports, that James Fox has become a ''loud Christian."'
-
-What is it like to disappear? I do have some idea what it might be like
-
-
-not to exist: physically be non-existent, and yet retain the ability to
-register memory and sensation. Once I worked psychically with a
-woman who was afflicted by a ''wailing'" spirit. In the course of trying
-to identify this spirit and ascertain motives for this bedevilment, which
-included thoughts of violent sex and depressive presence, a sense of
-'"'wailing,'' a name, and then several identifying characteristics came
-across to me psychically.
-
-This woman could not place the spirit according to these characteristics, but her mother told me that I had correctly described a childhood
-friend who had died suddenly in an automobile accident.
-
-I concentrated psychically and reached out to contact this wailing
-spirit, asking why it had focused on this particular girl. There was an
-inrush of hurt and resentment and I became aware of a public park and a
-small dog. People were walking around and talking to each other in this
-park, and the dog was barking.
-
-'"Nobody sees me!'' wailed this spirit, who had died in his early
-teens, ''Nobody sees me and my dog can't see me. They took my dog."'
-
-I asked the mother of this girl whether her childhood friend had owned
-a dog, and she told me that he did have a dog and that he had been a
-peculiar person in their small community because he was effeminate.
+Perhaps this is why Galligan fecls that the gypsies must know so much about \sc{ufo}s.
+
+\nonum\chap THIRTY-SIX
+
+Now that we are floundering in possible rational and physiological explanations for all of these \sc{ufo} sightings, I would like to advance the theory that the mental processes which I have been documenting are utterly irrational.
+
+They are irrational in the profoundest sense that anything can be irrational: the \sc{ufo} reality does not fit our standard notions of what a \sc{ufo} should be.
+
+It is not like \filmtitle{Star Wars}. It is not like sexual repression. It is not like orgone containment. It is not like psychic healing. It is not like any ordinary dream or nightmare. It is very serious. It is like being contacted from another dimension. It is like having your perceptions fundamentally altered by surprise, and in this respect it is most like \e{rocket movie}, the idea advanced by my six-year-old son.
+
+\nonum\chap THIRTY-SEVEN
+
+Lie back, folks: this room is the rocket. You are going to need no other entertainment. Turn off your TV sets.
+
+You might as well turn off your TV sets. If you do leave them on, you are going to experience electrical disturbance.
+
+Why visit the Bermuda Triangle? You can disappear right here at home. You don't want to disappear? Why, then: what is the most painful thing that ever happened to you?
+
+Because sudden expansion of consciousness by influx of pranic energy into the nervous system will activate that strongly-implanted memory. You may become hypersensitive to pain as well as to pleasure and philosophical profundity.
+
+In the throes of this painful hypersensitivity, you may go out into your car and turn on the carbon monoxide (p. 72)\ednote{update} or try to strangle your professor during a discussion of Macbeth (p. 4).\ednote{update} You might also write an incomprehensible paper on your strange experience with psychic healing (Section 30!) or (worse!) call all of the newspapers and report that your orgone collection cabinet cures cancer (p. 67),\ednote{update} which is what Reich went to jail for claiming.
+
+But \ld\ oh no! \ld\ not me, Rosie!
+
+As a result of the strong pranic influx which I experienced during the course of my association with Torres, and the spirit entities associated with Torres, memories of painful experience were activated through the novel \bt{Operation Dancing Dog}.
+
+Fox-Knipscheer's novel, whether I located this volume by use of subconscious \sc{esp} or as a result of spirit manipulation of my faculties, is directly relevant to several of my own ;very painful and conflictive memories.
+
+At the time I wrote the article \essaytitle{Notes on Tcrres,} I did not feel ready to expose this fact. In the course of redrafting this book, I have changed my mind.
+
+I will not go into gruesome detail, but I will list the correspondence:
+\begitems\style a
+* My marriage was violent, and in the course of this mutual battle I sustained cuts and bruises, had my clothes ripped off several times and was a part of accusations and counter-accusations of adultery and psychic fraud: this parallels several of the violent sex scenes in the book \ld\ How exactly, you will never know, Rosie! 
+* Since discovering a book on Gestapo practices in the library of a close associate in 1970, I have had fears about Nazi association with government employees. The combination of juggling the crazy Nazi publishers in Canada and tales of a Nazi spy ring in Fox-Knipscheer's book with my latent concern with private Gestapo sadism led me not to mention this possibility in my original article. 
+* The California scene of call girls, strange eccentric rich ladies and cocktail parties is exactly the same as the California scene in which (as I once privately felt) several mutual friends of myself and Ben Shenks are now going to hell in a handcart. Shenks may deny this, (p. 75)\ednote{update} but James Fox would not deny it. If it is actually true, as Shenks reports, that James Fox has become a \dq{loud Christian.}
+\enditems
+
+What is it like to disappear? I do have some idea what it might be like not to exist: physically be non-existent, and yet retain the ability to register memory and sensation. Once I worked psychically with a woman who was afflicted by a \dq{wailing} spirit. In the course of trying to identify this spirit and ascertain motives for this bedevilment, which included thoughts of violent sex and depressive presence, a sense of \dq{wailing,} a name, and then several identifying characteristics came across to me psychically.
+
+This woman could not place the spirit according to these characteristics, but her mother told me that I had correctly described a childhood friend who had died suddenly in an automobile accident.
+
+I concentrated psychically and reached out to contact this wailing spirit, asking why it had focused on this particular girl. There was an inrush of hurt and resentment and I became aware of a public park and a small dog. People were walking around and talking to each other in this park, and the dog was barking.
+
+\dq{Nobody sees me!} wailed this spirit, who had died in his early teens, \dq{Nobody sees me and my dog can't see me. They took my dog.}
+
+I asked the mother of this girl whether her childhood friend had owned a dog, and she told me that he did have a dog and that he had been a peculiar person in their small community because he was effeminate.
 
 She thought this wailing spirit might possibly have been bisexual.
 
-This condition might explain both the odd sexual thoughts bedeviling
-the girl, and the sense of ostracism and estrangement which had continued after death.
+This condition might explain both the odd sexual thoughts bedeviling the girl, and the sense of ostracism and estrangement which had continued after death.
 
-"'How do I die?'" this spirit asked me, ''No one can see me. How do I
-die?"'
+\dq{How do I die?} this spirit asked me, \dq{No one can see me. How do I die?}
 
-I advised this particular wailing spirit that it become less concerned
-with earthly peer group acceptance and, in conjunction with this direct
-advice, it has no longer been wailing.
+I advised this particular wailing spirit that it become less concerned with earthly peer group acceptance and, in conjunction with this direct advice, it has no longer been wailing.
 
-THIRTY-EIGHT
-So: what does this touching little episode of a bisexual spirit have to do
-with \sc{ufo}s?
-Simply, it is a case of a person's consciousness being altered by the
-presence of an entity from the astral dimension.
-In this case, thoughts of this entity were causing unusual sexual ideas,
+\nonum\chap THIRTY-EIGHT
 
+So: what does this touching little episode of a bisexual spirit have to do with \sc{ufo}s?
 
-and the sense that there was a depressive ''wailing'* in this woman's
-vicinity. This is not so different from cases of \sc{ufo} contact, when
-contactees state (p. 18) *'I woke with a touch on my chest and went to the
-window," or (p. 19) *I saw the light at home before being called by the
-station."
+Simply, it is a case of a person's consciousness being altered by the presence of an entity from the astral dimension.
 
-Although I have now written to Andrew Galligan for his copy of the
-Air Force manual on \sc{ufo}s and also to the mixed-up Nazi contingent in
-Canada for additional information on whirling fan-shaped discs, I really
-do not feel that this information---although perhaps reassuring as documentation in my files---is going to be of much help in understanding the
-\sc{ufo} reality.
+In this case, thoughts of this entity were causing unusual sexual ideas, and the sense that there was a depressive \dq{wailing} in this woman's vicinity. This is not so different from cases of \sc{ufo} contact, when contactees state (p. 18)\ednote{fix} \dq{I woke with a touch on my chest and went to the window,} or (p. 19)\ednote{fix} \dq{I saw the light at home before being called by the station.}
+
+Although I have now written to Andrew Galligan for his copy of the Air Force manual on \sc{ufo}s and also to the mixed-up Nazi contingent in Canada for additional information on whirling fan-shaped discs, I really do not feel that this information---although perhaps reassuring as documentation in my files---is going to be of much help in understanding the \sc{ufo} reality.
+
+\nonum\chap THIRTY-NINE
 
-THIRTY-NINE
 Suppose you were shown something you had never seen before, something really new. How would you feel? Afraid? Exhilarated? Intimidated? Helpless like a baby?
 
-Probably, you would feel vulnerable, irritated, excited and full of
-wonder-dread or dreadful wonder.
+Probably, you would feel vulnerable, irritated, excited and full of wonder-dread or dreadful wonder.
 
-I think it is significant that just after I had talked to Karnstedt about the
-\sc{ufo} fair in California, someone else called me to talk about 'rebirth''
-in California. 
-Incidentally, whoever was on the phone that day has never called back
-to make a definite appointment. Either he got waylaid in Provincetown,
-or he was inspired somehow at just the appropriate moment to call me
-with an ''important'' concern, which later dissipated in importance.
+I think it is significant that just after I had talked to Karnstedt about the \sc{ufo} fair in California, someone else called me to talk about 'rebirth'' in California. 
+
+Incidentally, whoever was on the phone that day has never called back to make a definite appointment. Either he got waylaid in Provincetown, or he was inspired somehow at just the appropriate moment to call me with an \dq{important} concern, which later dissipated in importance.
 
 Congratulations: rebirth!
 
-But is the \sc{ufo} experience then a mystical experience, some contact
-with transcendental reality? Does this \sc{ufo} rebirth alter consciousness
-in the same way as St. Paul's famous light on the road to Damascus?
-
-You must know that old story: Saul of Tarsus while riding to Damascus saw a light in the road which blinded him and knocked him off his
-horse. While lying in the road, he heard a voice which said: **Saul, Saul:
-why dost thou persecute me?"'
-
-Since Saul had been regularly persecuting the Christians, he took this
-voice to be Jesus Christ, and after a series of adventures during which his
-sudden blindness was healed he found that his life was completely
-
-
-reversed, and that he had been reborn. Spiritually reborn. At this time,
-he took the name ''Paul."'
-
-It is usual to suppose that the light on the road to Damascus was not a
-real light, that this symbolizes Saul's conversion. As we might say, *'the
-light dawned,'" and he changed his views. The \sc{ufo} contactees with
-whom I have spoken have had no such dramatic conversion experience.
-They seem to have seen a real and non-religious light. However, this real
-light has in some cases caused a ''rebirth'' experience which is not
-mystical or symbolic. This ''rebirth'" is not within the province of the
-military. It is an introduction to astral dimensions, a birth into expanded
-perception.
-
-Just as a newborn baby must instantly learn to breathe, a \sc{ufo}
-contactee must instantly learn to perceive by \sc{esp}. This is because the
-\sc{ufo} lights are making constructive use of the bio-plasmic energies
-which we recognize in effect as \sc{esp} and psychokinesis. In order to
-''see'' or in some other way perceive a \sc{ufo} light or ''craft,"' the
-contactee must participate in what our science fiction writers have called
-a ''warping'' of the ordinary time\slash space continuum.
-
-This warping may leave certain individuals permanently capable of
-unusual feats of \sc{esp} or psychokinesis. In others, it causes temporary
-clairvoyance and\slash or strange dreams.
-
-In less secure individuals, a \sc{ufo} sighting may cause severe psychological distress. For example: give a child of six or seven years an
-unusual toy---say, a flying sphere. Work it first, to show the child that it
-does fly, but then hand it over to the kid without any further instructions.
-
-Some children will ask for further information. Others will tinker with
-the toy, and then perhaps throw it across the room. This violence may
-stem from a sense of inferiority and frustration. The situation seems
-unjust. More is being asked of the child than he or she can possibly
-accomplish.
-
-So: quite a few contactees can be found punting the sphere instead of
-going back to the source of the enigma.
-
-FORTY
+But is the \sc{ufo} experience then a mystical experience, some contact with transcendental reality? Does this \sc{ufo} rebirth alter consciousness in the same way as St. Paul's famous light on the road to Damascus?
+
+You must know that old story: Saul of Tarsus while riding to Damascus saw a light in the road which blinded him and knocked him off his horse. While lying in the road, he heard a voice which said: \dq{Saul, Saul: why dost thou persecute me?}
+
+Since Saul had been regularly persecuting the Christians, he took this voice to be Jesus Christ, and after a series of adventures during which his sudden blindness was healed he found that his life was completely reversed, and that he had been reborn. Spiritually reborn. At this time, he took the name \dq{Paul.}
+
+It is usual to suppose that the light on the road to Damascus was not a real light, that this symbolizes Saul's conversion. As we might say, \dq{the light dawned,} and he changed his views. The \sc{ufo} contactees with whom I have spoken have had no such dramatic conversion experience.  They seem to have seen a real and non-religious light. However, this real light has in some cases caused a \dq{rebirth} experience which is not mystical or symbolic. This \dq{rebirth} is not within the province of the military. It is an introduction to astral dimensions, a birth into expanded perception.
+
+Just as a newborn baby must instantly learn to breathe, a \sc{ufo} contactee must instantly learn to perceive by \sc{esp}. This is because the \sc{ufo} lights are making constructive use of the bio-plasmic energies which we recognize in effect as \sc{esp} and psychokinesis. In order to \dq{see} or in some other way perceive a \sc{ufo} light or \dq{craft,} the contactee must participate in what our science fiction writers have called a \dq{warping} of the ordinary time\slash space continuum.
+
+This warping may leave certain individuals permanently capable of unusual feats of \sc{esp} or psychokinesis. In others, it causes temporary clairvoyance and\slash or strange dreams.
+
+In less secure individuals, a \sc{ufo} sighting may cause severe psychological distress. For example: give a child of six or seven years an unusual toy---say, a flying sphere. Work it first, to show the child that it does fly, but then hand it over to the kid without any further instructions.
+
+Some children will ask for further information. Others will tinker with the toy, and then perhaps throw it across the room. This violence may stem from a sense of inferiority and frustration. The situation seems unjust. More is being asked of the child than he or she can possibly accomplish.
+
+So: quite a few contactees can be found punting the sphere instead of going back to the source of the enigma.
+
+\nonum\chap FORTY
+
 What is the source of the \sc{ufo} enigma?
 As has been documented in photographs published in newspapers